Posts by 38 Years

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+++ VIGIL - TUESDAY 23RD OCTOBER +++

by Sad emo in

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friends

please join us in sending your prayers, good thoughts, reiki, healing vibes, lighting a candle or just taking a moment to think of all those named and unnamed who are fighting cancer or in any other need.

also their loved ones and caregivers.. hugs, peace and healing to you all!.

dansk (ian) - has been fighting mantle cell lymphoma for three years.

38 Years

Sending my thoughts and prayers

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New to this Site

by prodigal_son in

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i have been a disfellowshiped joho (what i call jehovah's witnesses now) for 7 years and i still find it hard every single day!

i have just recently reunited with 2 of my 4 sisters who have taken a stand just like myself!

i encourage anyone who is struggling with the decisoin to leave or not to leave, but beleive me and the countless others, it was the best decision of my life!!!

38 Years

It's great that you have gotten in contact with your sisters. Welcome!

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My Mum's gone

by shell69 in

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a few months ago i noticed that my mum had put her house up for sale, she doesn't live far from me and i had occasion to drive past her house.. well i've had a funny unsettled feeling all week, and i drove along the back of her house yesterday, and all the curtains were gone, she'd obviously left.

feeling brave i drove round the front, and yes its empty, doesnt look like she's been gone long.

i got out and went in the back garden, and looked through the windows.

38 Years

I'm so sorry. What a horrible and selfish thing for her to do. Take comfort that you are giving your children love, understanding and kindness. They will know you love them forever, unconditionally and they will love you in return.

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My mom just called

by Elsewhere in

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my biological family has been shunning me ever since i daed back in 1998.. my mom opened by saying that she's been thinking about me lately and then we chatted a bit to catch up on news.

i told her about my toilet training my two cats, my recent nose surgery, my running and how things are going well at work.

she told me about how my dad had a medical issue come up in july and how it was treated.. normally my biological family will only contact me when someone dies.

38 Years

Enjoy every conversation you have with your mom. If she loves you enough to want you to re-join, maybe she feels guilty about shunning you in the past.

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feelings of guilt

by confused and lost in

as some of you are aware i am in the early stages of doubting the wts as the only channel of truth.however i am assailed by feelings of guilt.am i being seduced by the words of disgruntled witnesses or ex-witnesses or am i truly doubting !

!maybe some of you felt this way in the early stages of your "defection" from the wts.sometimes i feel as though i am rejecting god and his organization but other times i feel so strongly that the wts has misled me and is acting to control my "loyalty" by vieled threats of destruction at armageddon.you see prior to becoming a jw i had no religious affiliations.i knew nothing about the bible or god.so for 20 yrs i have only known watchtower teachings and un-learning 20yrs of this is making me so indesicive.am i doing the right thing or not ?

my only solace is prayer.i have prayed to god to show me in some way what the truth really is.i must admit that these prayers have been the most heartfelt i have ever said.have others felt this way and if so how did they deal with it ?i would truly appreciate some feedback.

38 Years

Yes, the guilt can hold you back if you let it. When I first started researching the Witnesses, I wanted to see facts only. After a couple decades of having doubts and being sick of it all, one night, I did the unthinkable. I was nervous when I sat down at my computer. I went into Google and typed in Jehovah's Witnesses. I chose only the sites that had facts and documents. Oh yeah, I found the facts. Then I started looking into the history of the organization. I had been a Witness since 1967, when they didn't cover up the history of Russell and Rutherford. At that time, the old publications were still in the Kingdom Hall library. I remember glancing at the pictures and looking at the covers as a kid. I remember a picture of Russell was hanging on the library wall at the KH. At the suggestion of all the websites, I read Crisis of Conscience. Again, because I had exposure to old publications and the "Nathan Knorr" days, I knew what I was reading in CoC was true. I also knew that the history with Barber in Rochester NY was true. I learned enough to quit without feeling guilty at all.

My suggestions would be the same as others have already said. Start researching and read "Crisis of Conscience". If you don't want to go to a bookstore, you can buy CoC through Amazon or Barnes and Noble.

Take care and welcome to the board.

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My JW Experience

by BBOARD in

the stress in the day to day scenario for a jehovah witnesses trying to live their life through the wtbts is the same that cause them to work harder until they either work even harder, fade away, or suffer a mental breakdown.

fear of reproof or divine punishment from jehovah, not love for jesus, grips their day to day activities as they feel they must fulfill their duties of preaching and attending meeting.

many who came into the organization in the 90s; came in due to the friendliness of the people and not the reality of the cult.

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Exactly. We've been cut from the same cloth, so to speak That was outstanding. One of the best I've read. One of things that impressed me about reading this board is how everyone, no matter where we are from, identify with what we have been through. If we haven't experienced it personally, we know others who have. It doesn't matter how long you've been in, we are clones. Thank you so much for posting this. Oh, and welcome to the board!

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Gesturing

by 38 Years in

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friends

after you quit, do any of you still have problems with excessive gesturing (the ministry school type).

when i was a kid, getting a "w" made me feel like a failure.

i was always getting a "w" for gesturing, so since i wanted to be "perfect", i decided to incorporate gestures into my everyday speaking.

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After you quit, do any of you still have problems with excessive gesturing (the ministry school type). When I was a kid, getting a "W" made me feel like a failure. I was always getting a "W" for gesturing, so since I wanted to be "perfect", I decided to incorporate gestures into my everyday speaking. I gestured for everything! It became a habit and then I finally got "G" on all my talks when I worked on gesturing. After a few decades, into adulthood, I have never been able to stop. My hands are always flying around when I talk. It's annoying and somewhat embarrasing.

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